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| || "Re(2):Obescene Voodo Dance Teleport to the PA" , posted Wed 1 Jul 05:59|
I don't think I'll have the courage to go back to the tribute thread, it's just too sad.
I have a story though: back when Jojo ASB got released for PS3, I bought it, but my package got lost, so I bought it digitally instead. Then, a few weeks later, my game turned out in my mail box, so I had an extra copy.
Toxico was talking about the game but hadn't played it (to be fair, it was not a very good game), so a nefarious scheme came to my mind: I would send my extra copy to him... in exchange for HIS SOUL.
But since souls aren't easy to send across the ocean, I went for the next best thing and requested his birth date, for my astrological studies.
Obviously, on its way to Chile, the package got lost, and I'm sure Toxico thought I was playing a prank on him. But then it resurfaced, and he did get his hands on the game! From Japan to the UK to Chile, that was an even crazier trip than Jotaro's trip to Egypt.
My interaction via email was weird, because... it was a 1-to-1 conversation with Toxico, and weirdly, I think I was a bit intimidated? Which is absolute nonsense, but that's how it was, and I kinda over compensated the weirdness in the email. I've always thought I would go to Chile one day and see him face-to-face to actually behave like a proper human being... But that didn't happen.
On a different topic, Steam now has stupid emoji available for their chat. Which is weird because who uses Steam chat? Also the shop is horrible, and I don't understand the point system.
But, if you do end up in the point shop, and find the KOF2002UM section by pure chance, you may find the :kryzalid: emoji (just his face from the Hiroaki official art). That, in my mind, has become the :Toxico: emoji.
I mean, it would if I was using Steam chat to talk with friends, which I'm not. I'm just stuck there with Maou in some low-budget, virtual rendering of Sartre's No Exit.
| || "Re(2):Obescene Voodo Dance Teleport to the PA" , posted Wed 1 Jul 13:49:|
quote: Hey Droogo, I dont know you and I cant imagine the emotions you're going through.Losing a friend that you always easily connect even after long absence sure must be hurtful and creating a void that paralyzes.I hope the sadness doesn't unnecessarily turn into guilt that consumes the person slowly. Hope you carry the legacy proudly.
Disciple of TOXICO. As are we all.
I was talking with Iggy literally yesterday about how I would like to play Dragon's Crown, one of my favorite games in recent memory, again, but how it would feel so disorienting without our buddy Toxico chatting alongside us and getting the hapless MMC band of mostly Amazons out of trouble.
You likely recall that Professor posted a very nice tribute to Toxico on the main page here. And of course there's the very sad initial thread after he was gone, but that's also nice as a collection of memories about such a clever, hilarious, and sweet guy.
PS: Norway? I think kofoguz is there, too. Hosting an MMC get-together always cures the blues!
It's been awhile since I post here or lurk even. For some reason I had to check mmcafe today and I saw your post. I've been trying to heal my hyper vigilance that caused me to act like a manic guy who also occasionally spew transphobic, homophobic and probably and cluelessly misogynistic stuff, it is ironic considering that I am gay myself and I started exploring more and more of the feminin side of mine. I'm learning, I'm trying to getting better and heal. And I'm truly, deeply sorry, not angry with self hate, about my past self. It is a long journey and I'm a slow walker. I try to make it upto it with activism as much as I can.
I work as a
monk teacher~ish at a monastery a svensk primary skolan in the middle of an ancient forest lays in this land where light and dark dance remarkably. I hope all the poison that oozed from me in the past I was getting from venomous pool I had to swim through cleanses away!
I want this off my chest for a while now and wanted to do it with self care.
Back to meet up! It would've been rather easy to travel to Norway if not for the pandemi restrictions. Just let me know if a mmcafe get together should happen when world gets to normal. Here or there or anywhere!
Now, duty calls and i need to go back to what I have been doing. Take good care of yourselves and stay safe!
[this message was edited by kofoguz on Wed 1 Jul 13:50]